Living in Harmony with my Creativity.

“Hypervigilance”

“Moving through thoughts, creativity sits gently with me, always with a hand on my shoulder. Guiding me, nudging me this direction or that direction.

Gently, patiently, lovingly.”

I am certain, after extensive observation, creativity is a living, breathing entity. Our creativity is solely unique to us as individuals. I am not alone in this thinking, that creativity is part of our person, mind, intelligence, soul, matter, I can go on… But, the word entity, doesn’t exactly feel right to me. Creativity is more than that. It’s vibrancy, color, movement, flare, extravagance, quirkiness, wonder, curiosity, freedom, expression, transcendence, love.

It breathes and swells with each breath it takes and is given. No more we breathe into our creativity than our creativity breathes into us.

Creativity is part of us from birth to death. I've come to understand that in times when she sits being ignored, she is still part of me. Creativity is you, you are creativity.

I’ve also learned recently how unkind I have been to my own creativity. I stuffed her in a box because of should and would. Obligations and expectations to live in another’s shoes instead of my own. She waited for me to return without anger or judgment, but she did long for me and I her.

This painting, “Hypervigilance” is a deep dive into self and creative exploration. It is a work in progress, as I am. My creativity, however, is fully aware of who she is. She is just waiting for me to catch up.